City Cowboys and Cowgirls

It is hard living in the city especially for us cowboys and cowgirls

People make fun of us like me for wearing my cowboy hat and that

The one thing that bugs me is that they call me trigger

Most of us city cowboy and cowgirls we where on farms and riding horses

But now we live in the city not doing our country things anymore

We always keep the country stuff alive

I still have family that live in the country

I myself spent a lot of time in the barn especially hang out with the cows

The cowboys and cowgirls are the kindest and sweetest people you can ever meet

There are a lot of us you know where to find us especially easy when we are wearing our country gear

Where there is country music playing that is where you will find us

Always keeping it country



Cowboy's Heart

My heart is in pain

When I see your face

I don't know why that happens every time

I am broken when you're around

I wish that your away but your always around

It's being alone

Especially for a cowboy

I rather hand around the cows instead of you

You just me insane

I can't take it anymore

I just don't want you with me me anymore

I rather saddle up my horse and keep on travelling

All a cowboy needs is his horse

If you are a cowgirl and likes horses too

And get that about cowboys than your OK with me than



The Closet

• Closets where you keep things in
• Storage and even hide things
• We all need closets
• But why is all people refereed to things if people are not normal?
• The main thing is when you share and open up about yourself they say your out of the closet
• Is that mean we are still in the closet and not out or going anywhere in life?
• What if a person doesn't share those things so they are still in the closet?
• To me we are still same if we are still in the closet or out of the closet
• If your out of the closet just means all the people know about it and could be bad
• For me coming out of the closet what I needed to do for myself so that the people know the true me
• I am not such a strong person
• With the help with my partner and very close Friends I finally came fully open about it
• I feel the weight fully lifted off me like something holding me down now its gone
• I shouldn't really care so much what others think of me but I do
• It's hard because how other see me as how I see my self that is the hard thing
• I am glad others now see me as the lady I am not the male that I am in
• The hard part you will half to get over name calling and bullying is very real when you get out of the closet
• Sometimes than you think it would be better to stay into it and not out as you are
• We half to change society and people minds changed so we don't have that closet anymore

This is dedicated to other trans, gay, bisexual, lesbian people how haven't came out yet

Family

Everyone has a family like that your born in and some don't at all. The ones don't have any family with had family so that they will not be alone. Some of us or a lot have family that are born in but with they didn't. I am really one of those people. My family already thinks I am a mental case that because I am a male that dresses up in ladies things its not because I am a freak. I really feel that I am a full lady even if born a male and I do dress up because I need to. My family doesn't know that I am a trans person they would never understand already think i am a mental case because I am a cross dresser.
I really hate my close family but not all of them. The way the treat me and think I need much help and change how I am. There is not nothing wrong with me it all. I am such a black sheep of the family they love me but not true if try to get me help and said I need to change that is not family and Christian. They say and go to church every week but and they they are Christian but in that case much sinners how they treat me. To be Christian is too love all those how are different from you like Jesus does and accept everyone. I guess so hard to dress up or even be lady that I am. I wish people how love me for I am a lady and help me change to be a fully lady I am and not change how I think you can't.
The only family I feel like that I do have are very close friends and the one who loves me also the LGBT people and other trans people those are my family not my blood family. I do like my blood family but they live far from me and wish I would be there at least they love me for me.
For family things so hard for me because I am fully different and know that I don't really belong there and with them for sure but I am stuck and can't get out. Holidays and family things are the hardest for me especially Christmas because I don't want to be around them at all.
I love to be more with my LGBT family and close friends especially at holidays than around my family.
All families I think have black sheep in the family and kind of despise them and that is me in my family. I rather be alone than have all them look at me strange and what they think of me and hate me. I rather be with the ones I truly love but not with my family.