Family

Everyone has a family like that your born in and some don't at all. The ones don't have any family with had family so that they will not be alone. Some of us or a lot have family that are born in but with they didn't. I am really one of those people. My family already thinks I am a mental case that because I am a male that dresses up in ladies things its not because I am a freak. I really feel that I am a full lady even if born a male and I do dress up because I need to. My family doesn't know that I am a trans person they would never understand already think i am a mental case because I am a cross dresser.
I really hate my close family but not all of them. The way the treat me and think I need much help and change how I am. There is not nothing wrong with me it all. I am such a black sheep of the family they love me but not true if try to get me help and said I need to change that is not family and Christian. They say and go to church every week but and they they are Christian but in that case much sinners how they treat me. To be Christian is too love all those how are different from you like Jesus does and accept everyone. I guess so hard to dress up or even be lady that I am. I wish people how love me for I am a lady and help me change to be a fully lady I am and not change how I think you can't.
The only family I feel like that I do have are very close friends and the one who loves me also the LGBT people and other trans people those are my family not my blood family. I do like my blood family but they live far from me and wish I would be there at least they love me for me.
For family things so hard for me because I am fully different and know that I don't really belong there and with them for sure but I am stuck and can't get out. Holidays and family things are the hardest for me especially Christmas because I don't want to be around them at all.
I love to be more with my LGBT family and close friends especially at holidays than around my family.
All families I think have black sheep in the family and kind of despise them and that is me in my family. I rather be alone than have all them look at me strange and what they think of me and hate me. I rather be with the ones I truly love but not with my family.