Lisa the Trucker

She is not your every day trucker

She drives on one of the dangerous roads in the world

She has one of the toughest jobs you can get

She loves what she does

There are ladies that drive a big rig but not there

We need truckers they our life line

If they stop the goods that some communities truckers are there life line

If that would happened some people might die

Thank a trucker doing a tough job

They help us with goods

So lets keep the convoy of trucks moving

She drives the ice road one of the dangerous roads and makes the job much harder

A big accomplishment to get the load where it goes and than come back home safe

She does it every day

Should pray each day you never know

There the weather changes in minutes

Give respect for those drivers with such a tough job

A lot of good people die driving trucks  



The Real Future

Where is the beauty gone?

Why is everything so dark and gray?

Seems like all the good things are gone

Why did we destroy ourselves?

All users of our earth resources fossil fuels

Terrorism now strong all everywhere not just in one place

The future is going to be hard

We all are going to fight each other

The climate temperature and storms are going to be out of control

Places will be all dry ed up and the other places will be under water

Once big cities will be barren and in ruin

Will be fighting for resources

One day be one person for themselves

Means no more structure all gone

Chaos takes over

Even maybe nuclear war breaks out

The earth will get its revenge on us

Maybe it is all for the best

There might be hope

You can already see the new future

In the future we might all be like this not violence and in certain parts but all over 

Tango

They call it the dance of love

Two hearts beating as one

The tango is a  very technical  dance of the steps
Can you hear the rhythm of the music that leads the dance
When it is danced well and the chemistry is right
The dance such a beautiful thing
The dance so passionate and very hot steamy sexy
Also the tango is very erotic
It was probably banned once for being too erotic and naughty
There are two types of the tango
The one kind is the international regular tango its little subdued to the second one
The other type of tango is the Argentine tango
The Argentine tango is more street and very hot
They don't call it the dance of love for nothing
Would be so amazing to be where in South America where the dance invented
To see how it is danced right and well and the full meaning of the dance
I know how each ballroom and Latin dances the steps and techniques for each dance
What if your a lesbian or a gay couple?
How the dance will be danced and who will take the lead and other follow?
It is fully up to you
I really love the tango but I don't have the partner to dance it with
 

 



My Peronal Diary 4

Well these days are sort of the same I guess. At least my hours at work are sort of getting back to normal hopefully. I am still trying to write when I can. I am still looking for better work and in different cities that kind of thing. Also I still get hate male for being a trans person. Things being difficult right now but I do about have a new vision of my work and get more serious in it. I still love making music or dance whatever in the arts scene. I am thinking of maybe becoming a blog writer for a site or team or something like that and freelance writing. I even about writing for a paper. I still haven't gone to counselling yet to diagnose me what I am and my transition. I know there are people out there now a group that wants to help its my own time line not theirs. People are saying that I am not confident about my self and my self esteem.
 My self esteem and confidence is fine. It is hard to find work these days. Also still always battle issues with my health I am like up and down all the time. I do would like to live as a full girl I do think of myself as one even though I am not dressed each day and living as one but I am. I am hoping to do song writing soon with my artist music friends if they have time to work with me that would be great. I am still trying to get serious people to conduct them into a new kind of unique choir never been done before. I Love doing new things and being creative creating and teaching how to sing is my fave also reading music. It would be nice if I could go into playing viola again and create a bit of that kind of music its just I don't have one at the moment. Also love to get back into dance I don't know why scared too for some reason.
I would love to get into DJ with Lp's that is something I love and I am in all the dance style music scenes like Drum and Bass, House, Hardcore and Trance and maybe more. I might be getting involved and giving back and helping those in the LGBT community like me this community group would like me to come to their meeting and start helping out I might its a nice opportunity for me. Also I am always and love to be involved with our First Nation Aboriginal people more and getting a chance to work and help the youth would be such a blessing. That is really what I would like to do.
That is basically what is going on right now with me

Goodbyes

It's a normal part of life

Saying hi and bye to people each day

Goodbyes are really hard when a person very close friend or someone you love

After saying goodbye really hurts for a while and lots of tears

I am glad I just said to a close friend goodbye that I trust that I said goodbye and not going to help out anymore to set up and go there

I was glad that I did it that way or else and everyone make a big deal

It was hard but I will keep in touch with them

Would be worse if everyone knew would be so hard

Why are goodbyes so hard?

It is like so much pain like your dying or like pain of getting shot

I did have tears when I left

Glad they didn't make a big deal because only one person knew

I am an emotional person when people just come and go out of my life

You will have new people in your life

Last days with someone before they go are so hard

It's like in University when done the year term friends leave for home than come back again

What if a person that you love or is close friend and they leave but never come back

I knew people never will say goodbye to you and that is sad

They are people with you always and never leave you they are Jesus and his mother Mary

She is our mother as well

It says in Psalm 118 that says "His love endures forever"

It is true

I am still crying over goodbyes

 



My Rant freestyle poetry

• Yo I am back and I ain't going nowhere
• This is what I do and this is fully who I am
• I am going to keep it real the true of myself
• I am not going to be scared off anymore
• I am going to be real
• You all FUCK yourselves
• First off and first off I am Jessica a trans-gender
• My love and other half she loves me for who I am and gave me the name Jessica
• I am sorry to offend a lot of people but this is who I am
• This is it you can like me or not I don't care
• I will keep writing until I have no words , freestyle rap when I am all dried up than I will stop
• I write because its my gift from the Creator
• Even I rap a MC freestyle just the the words flow out
• That is basally how I am write it just comes down on the paper just flows out
• I even in all the arts as well just not a painter don't have that gift
• Being really creative that is how we do it and I love who it flows in all different forms
• I love the arts it can express in so many ways of feelings
• We shouldn't be boxed into little box like your in one box and can't do other things
• It is so hard and tiring trying  to please everyone
• Go please yourself and be true to yourself is the best and people will love it
• Be true to yourself 100 percent and don't hide
• Don't hide your true self you half to live each day your best as you can
• I learned that from my love she is right
• You half to like your gift flow if no that will hinder and not be so good
• That is the full truth
• It is great that I can see and feel in both worlds
• A lot of people can't do that
• I can see and feel in as a female also as a male
• I have to embrace it or won't be good
• Being a trans person I realize that now it helps me in all the arts that I do
• For example my writing, when I conduct choirs, even my performing, even in my dancing where I first got into the arts and I still love
• In high school when I was fully into the arts I did some dance also writing during the same period both things
• I get into a full zone meditation kind of thing when I do my arts as an athlete that is how I go into doing that into my arts
• Here is an example during one event in my life I will share with you
• I was in a gym and there was a full crowed lots of people during my event
• I was a high jumper
• There was one person I knew there she I hear ed her keep saying the F word to me
• I remember it came just down to myself
• I went into my zone to drown out the full crowed watching and that person I know
• The event came down to myself I guess everyone in it fouled out
• I just kept jumping and jumping push myself to the limits and I didn't half to keep going
• I did for myself and still ending up first I just wanted to prove them all
• That is how I do the arts going into the zone and smash all the barriers down I hope
• This is the reason of my life
• We all struggle what makes you stand out is staying as who you are and don't fave a FUCK about other people