Mirror, Mirror

It is just a piece of glass but it reveals so much

Mirror, Mirror we all look  into you

Everyone sees and gets something different from looking into you

Mirror, Mirror why is that?

It shows the truth or the truth what you think

Mirror, Mirror

Some type of people looking into you see that they look totally different reality like those think they are ugly and over weight but they are not

Or like the people opposite to that

what do you see when you look into the Mirror?

 Mirror, Mirror who is the fairest of them all?

Most all of us sees something  that is totally different reflecting that what we really look like

Mirror Mirror on the wall why am I ugly?

Mirror Mirror why did you harm Snow White?

Sad that a lot of people get to have an eating disorder because looking into a Mirror

I believe people while looking into a Mirror kill themselves

Mirror, Mirror on the wall your so cruel

What I see looking into the Mirror at myself I see that I am not pretty and a totally different image looking back at me

Mirror, Mirror I see a lady looking back at me not a male

Do you really show the true self of me?

Mirror, Mirror on the wall fill in the blank yourself

 

 

 

 

Diary of today and last 2 weeks

Hi there all well Jessica is in a really bad state at the moment I thought someone cheer up and we where close I do hope still works out soon she is really amazing. Its hard being in my shoes everyday this town. I do get used to the looks stares all the time. The things that really bother me this town is very conservative and I do get names a lot and last week on the way home I got spit on and called names. This week is been tough too I have been fighting a lot of people and it was great to find a sweet amazing person now she hates me too I understand that part I hope to please that person. I am always in a hard place crying like a girl no one cares. I am at a cross roads. I do need to figure out myself they tell me about the whole transitioning thing. I have 2 main choices and the 1 one is staying what I am a male but gender neutral  or becoming a fully lady. I have been reading a lot of stuff like today. Its really more up to the counselor or whatever makes finally decision of the person to move that way or not. I am actually in a very dark place right now. Tonight I have hit the bottom right now. I have been battling with suicide for a long time and now its up at top again. The way its going if my writing and play or myself work out. I am through with keep going and fighting I am just dead for real no games. I can't take much more pushing, bullying, spitting on me, other things its getting hard to keep going. I am not sure how long I will have to keep fighting I can't keep it up sometime and right now its very hard. Jessica